When it went down
It was so hard to breathe
I gave up everything
And I slow fall down to the floor
Life was escaping me
I couldn't find myself
'Til it was all lost
Not anymore

I'm holding on to all the pieces of my heart's debris
'Til it's time
I'll, I'll pull it together and fix myself eventually
I know it's mine

I found gold in the wreckage
Put it on a necklace
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine
I wear it like a message
So I don't forget it
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine

I know that it's mine no matter what I do
I know that it's mine whether I win or lose
And even though my heart needs to take its time
I know that it's mi-i-ine, I know that it's mine

Facing the change
But it's still tough to see
At first I fought it all
I was so mean
I'm still unsure
How it's supposed to be?
I'm taking everyday now by the skin of my teeth
Until I learn

I'm holding on to all the pieces of my heart's debris
'Til it's time
I'll... I'll pull it together and fix myself eventually
I know it's mine

I found gold in the wreckage
Put it on a necklace
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine
I wear it like a message
So I don't forget it
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine

I know that it's mine no matter what I do
I know that it's mine whether I win or lose
And even though my heart needs to take its time
I know that it's mi-i-ine, I know that it's mine

I found gold in the wreckage
Put it on a necklace
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine
I wear it like a message
So I don't forget it
Keepin' it 'cause I-I-I, I know that it's mine
I know that it's mine no matter what I do
I know that it's mine whether I win or lose
And even though my heart needs to take its time
I know that it's mi-i-ine, I know that it's mine

All About You

Days, they can feel so long I've been hangin' on to a sad love song Nights never came to dawn They went on and on When you pulled me out And before I knew it I became all about you I became all about you And before I knew it I became all about you I became all about you Just like a ship Without a sail Just like a ship Without a sail Days, they felt so lost I was so far gone Hangin' upside down Nights were only friend My distraction When you pulled me out And before I knew it I became all about you I became all about you And before I knew it I became all about you I became all about you Before I knew it (Just like a ship) Before I knew it (Without a sail) He was nothin' to her (Just like a ship) Before I knew it (Without a sail) I became all about you (But I know we can make it) All about you (But I know we can make it) All about you (But I know we can make it) All about you (But I know we can make it) I said And before I knew it I became all about you (Just like a ship) I became all about you (Without a sail) I became all about you (Just like a ship) I became all about you (Without a sail)

The Knocks - River (ft. Parson James) [Official Lyric Video]

I’ve been dreaming, of you and a bottle no one, leaving, till we hit the bottom fade in, to me again ive been thinkin, of nights on the river slowly sinkin, how im gonna miss him fade in, to me again Ive been feeling the weight of the water Drowning deep end have we hit the bottom? Fade in to me again. Ive been thinking of nights on the river Slowly sinkin how I’m gonna miss him Fade in to me again

End Of The Night

Grow Old With You

All We Got

This is all we got
Dreaming 'bout a revolution in our minds
This is all we got

Lock me out of this life institution
I am angry and high on illusions
Yes, I hate, but hate's not a solution
Trying my best, but hey, I'm just a human, oh

We don't need to say we're sorry
We don't need to worship heaven's art
We don't need to say we're sorry
So where's the love?

This is all we got
Dreaming 'bout a revolution in our minds
This is all we got
Talking 'bout our resolutions getting high
We don't need a lot
And we don't care if we fuck it up
If it's what we got
Then why not give it all we got?

I can see in your eyes you're defeated
Try to fool yourself 'til you believe it
That you're better off numb and not feeling
But there's a sky if you jump through the ceiling, oh

We don't need to say we're sorry
We don't need to worship heaven's art
We don't need to say we're sorry
So where's the love?

This is all we got
Dreaming 'bout a revolution in our minds
This is all we got
Talking 'bout our resolutions getting high
We don't need a lot
And we don't care if we fuck it up
If it's what we got
Then why not give it all we got? (We got)
Then why not give it all we got? (We got)

Lock me out of this life institution, no
Trying my best, but hey, I'm just a human, oh
We don't need to say we're sorry
We don't need to say we're sorry

So where's the love?
This is all we got
Dreaming 'bout a revolution in our minds
This is all we got

This is all we got
Dreaming 'bout a revolution in our minds
This is all we got
Talking 'bout our resolutions getting high
We don't need a lot
And we don't care if we fuck it up
If it's what we got
Then why not give it all we got? (We got)
Then why not give it all we got? (We got)

Then why not give it all we got? (We got)

Coldplay - Higher Power

Sometimes I just can't take it
Sometimes I just can't take it and it isn't alright
I'm not going to make it
And I think my shoe's untied (oh oh)

I'm like a broken record
I'm like a broken record and I'm not playing right
Drocer nekorb a ekil mi
'Til you tell me on a heavenly phone to

Hold tight (hold tight)
Come on (come on)
Come on (come on)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
Come on (come on)
Come on (come on)
Yeah, don't let go
Hold tight (hold tight)
Hold tight (hold tight)
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
"It's alright, it's alright" she said
I got my hands up shaking just to let you know

That you've got a higher power
Got me singing every second, dancing every hour
Oh yeah, you've got a higher power
And you're really someone I wanna know (oh oh)

This boy is electric
This boy is electric and you're sparkling light
The universe connected
And I'm buzzing night after night after night (oh oh)

This joy is electric
This joy is electric and you're circuiting through
I'm so happy that I'm alive
Happy I'm alive at the same time as you

'Cause you've got a higher power
Got me singing every second, dancing every hour
Oh yeah, you've got a higher power
And you're really someone I wanna know
(I wanna know, oh oh)

You've got, yeah, you've got a higher
You've got, yeah, you've got a higher
You've got, yeah, you've got a higher
You've got
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
You've got, oh, you've got a higher
You've got, yeah, you've got a higher
You've got, oh, you've got a higher
My hands up shaking just to let you know now

You've got a higher power
You've got me singing every second, dancing any hour
Oh yeah, you've got a higher power
You're once in any lifetime
I'm going a million miles an hour

When for so long I'd been down on my knees
Then your love song saved me over and over
For so long I'd been down on my knees
'Til your love song floats me on, ee-on, oh oh

SPEECHLESS

I remember how it all started
Feeling warm till the summer was over
And our little lives, it felt so big then
We're only reaching stars
And I am a big black star
And you said to me

If you love me, then say you love me
And you are mine
Hey come on darling, stop the hiding
Speak your mind

Woah, I loved you
But you left me speechless then
Say if you love me, then say you love me
And you are mine

I remember how it all started
Feeling warm till the summer was over
And our little lives, it felt so big then
We're only reaching stars
And I am a big black star
And you said to me

If you love me, then say you love me
And you are mine
Hey come on darling, stop the hiding
Speak your mind

Woah, I loved you
But you left me speechless then
Say if you love me, then say you love me
And you are mine

You left me speechless
Speechless
You left me speechless

You left me speechless
Speechless
You left me speechless
Speechless

So if you love me, then say you love me
And you are mine
Hey come on darling
Speechless

Clarity

High dive into frozen waves where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain, it was worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash 'cause we both know how this ends
A clock ticks 'til it breaks your glass and I drown in you again

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Walk on through a red parade and refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground and makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave 'cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pull, then I'll push too deep and I'll fall right back to you

'Cause you are the piece of me I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly, still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?
Why are you my clarity?
Why are you my remedy?

If our love is tragedy, why are you my remedy?
If our love's insanity, why are you my clarity?

 

가끔씩 내 지나온 추억을 애상할 때가 있다. 

언제나 후회만 있다. 

후회라는 것은

지나간 것들에 대해 미련이 남는 것이다.

나는 항상 후회하는 삶을 살았던 것이다.

지나가버린 인연. 지나가버린 추억. 

지나가버린 소중한 것들에 대해

아쉬움과 미련이 남는 삶을 살았다.

내 남은 삶에는 아마도 외로움과 후회만이 남을 것이다.

그래도 한가지 다행인 것은, 지나가 버린 인연과 

지나가 버린 일들을 떠올릴 때면,

좋았던 기억과 좋았던 추억들이 있어서

그때로 여행을 떠날 수 있다.

조금의 알코올을 빌리면 

좋았던 그때의 기억으로 훌쩍 여행을 떠날 수 있는 것이다. 

나는 그 좋았던 기억에서 좋았던 사람이었을까.

나는 좀 부족한 사람이었다고 생각한다.

생각도 부족했고 사고도 부족했고 인격도 부족했다.

그런 부족한 나를 만나준 그녀에게 참 고맙다.

그녀는 그런 나에게 진실된 미소를 보여 줬다.

나는 그런 그녀를 실망시키지 않기 위해 무던히도 애를 썼지.

마치 맞지 않은 옷을 입은 나를 보고 누군가 "그 옷은 너에게 맞지 않아. 너무 크지 않은가?"

라는 말을 듣지 않도록 꼬깃꼬깃 넘치는 옷깃들을 짐짓 몸속으로 쑤셔 넣었던 것 같다.

환한 그때의 그녀의 미소가 떠오른다. 

어디서나 잘 지내기를. 

그리고 우리의 공통된 추억속에서 부디 나라는 존재를 잊기를 

갈망한다. 

하지만 나는

언제까지나 그대를 잊지 않겠다. 

항상 추억하고 고마운 기억만 기억하겠다. 

나는 그대에게 참 고맙다. 

YOUNG SUMMER

Thanks for the 

adventure 

now go have a new one!

 

 

 

 

4월은 혼자서 보내기엔 너무나 외로운 계절이었다.  

4월에는 주위의 사람들 모두가 행복하게 보였다. 

사람들은 코트를 벗어 던진 채, 양지바른 곳에 모여 이야기를 하거나, 

캐치볼을 하거나, 사랑을 나누고 있었다.   

 하지만 나는 완전한  외돌토리였다. 

나오코도 미도리도 나가사와도, 누구도 모두 내가 서 있는 자리에서 멀어져 갔다. 

그래서 지금의 나에겐  안녕 하고 인사할 상대조차 없었다. 

그 돌격대마저도 나는 그리웠다.

나는 그러한 괴로운 슬픔을 달랠 길 없는 고독 속에서 4월을 보냈다. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Want you to know I still think of you
Everytime I do something I know we used to do and
I just can’t help myself, can’t help missing you cuz
I know I am who I am and it’s thanks to you

I heard you’re doing what you want and that you’re better now
And I’m glad that I’m not there so I can’t drag you down
But the one thing that will never change, is the smile you’re putting on my face 

Cuz the memories will never fade

 

Open Your Heart

 Lyrics:
Watch out!

I see you on the street, and you walk on by
You make me wanna hang my head down and cry
If you gave me half a chance you'd see
My desire burning inside of me
But you choose to look the other way

I've had to work much harder than this
For something I want
Don't try to resist me

Open your heart to me, baby
I hold the lock and you hold the key
Open your heart to me, darling
I'll give you love if you, you turn the key

I think that you're afraid to look in my eyes
You look a little sad, boy, I wonder why
I follow you around, but you can't see
You're too wrapped up in yourself to notice
So you choose to look the other way
Well, I've got something to say

Don't try to run, I can keep up with you
Nothing can stop me from trying
You've got to

Open your heart to me, baby
I hold the lock and you hold the key
Open your heart to me, darling
I'll give you love if you, you turn the key

Open your heart with the key
One is such a lonely number
Ah, ah, ah, ah

Open your heart
I'll make you love me
It's not that hard
If you just turn the key

Don't try to run, I can keep up with you
Nothing can stop me from trying
You've got to

Open your heart to me, baby
I hold the lock and you hold the key
Open your heart to me, darling
I'll give you love if you, you turn the key

Open your heart with the key
Open your heart
I'll make you love me
It's not that hard
If you just turn the key
Open your heart
I'll make you love me
It's not that hard
If you just turn the key
Open your heart
I'll make you love me
It's not that hard
If you just turn the key
Open your heart
I'll make you love me
It's not that hard
If you just turn the key

Don't You Worry

 

 

 

When I was a child I couldn't sleep for a while
I was so stuck up in my head with my heart and my mind

 
Now that I'm older I came to realize
That it's, it's only human to keep wondering why

 

'Cause only when you're lonely
You forget all the fun
You regret all you've done
But only when I'm lonely
I hear a voice deep inside
Telling me it's alright

 

Don't you worry if you're losing your mind
It's only human to keep wondering why
Don't you worry there's an end to the night
It's only human to keep wondering why

 

X2

When I was 16 and I was down on my knees
I thought I had all the answers to what life really means

 
But now that I'm older I came to realize
That it's, it's only human to keep wondering why

 

Cause only when you're lonely
You forget all the fun
You regret all you've done
But only when I'm lonely
I hear a voice deep inside
Telling me it's alright

 

Don't you worry if you're losing your mind
It's only human to keep wondering why

Don't you worry there's an end to the night
It's only human to keep wondering why

 

X3

  

But only when I'm lonely
I hear a voice deep inside
Telling me it's alright